Nostalgia
I've gone through some changes since my last post.
I've lost my job. I'm having trouble finding a new one. In this economy that's to be expected. So, I'm also looking at alternatives: Project work, industry switches, etc.
Today, I had to go out and visit my old place of work. I never liked it much. And I went to visit the restaurant where I went to lunch, which I'll miss a lot more.
It's odd. Never liked the job, never liked the people I worked with. But it was part of my life for 2 years, and I think I got used to it. So, I'm sad to be leaving. I don't think I should be sad, and I can only tell I'm sad by the strange, bad habits that are starting to come up. It's nice to be aware enough to at least realize I'm slipping into bad habits, even if I'm having trouble stopping them.
I'm not terribly sad, though. I'm looking forward to the new adventures that are coming. However, it's hard not to stand and look back. The past was comfortable, the future promises to be less so. And I like my comfort.
Lord, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the strength to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
I've lost my job. I'm having trouble finding a new one. In this economy that's to be expected. So, I'm also looking at alternatives: Project work, industry switches, etc.
Today, I had to go out and visit my old place of work. I never liked it much. And I went to visit the restaurant where I went to lunch, which I'll miss a lot more.
It's odd. Never liked the job, never liked the people I worked with. But it was part of my life for 2 years, and I think I got used to it. So, I'm sad to be leaving. I don't think I should be sad, and I can only tell I'm sad by the strange, bad habits that are starting to come up. It's nice to be aware enough to at least realize I'm slipping into bad habits, even if I'm having trouble stopping them.
I'm not terribly sad, though. I'm looking forward to the new adventures that are coming. However, it's hard not to stand and look back. The past was comfortable, the future promises to be less so. And I like my comfort.
Lord, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the strength to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
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It'll be ok. All things work together for good for those who love God.
Don't look back, though, or anima may leave... remember Orpheus and Lot...
Cheers.
i HOPE you are feeling rotten about it. if you weren't, you would be surpressing natural feelings, right? and that can't be good.
but i'm glad you feel you have a new lease on life. just go for it.
it's hard, though----as a career coach, and as someone who has been involuntarily unemployed and am now UNDERemployed (working on it!) I can say that usually the biggest thing to fight is the malaise and lethargy that come with the stress and panic.
fight the lethargy with all your heart, might and soul. feeling like !@#$#$ will happen, alot. embrace it, write about it, share it with friends (me!). feeling tired: fight like a mad dog. it is the enemy.
just my two cents.
oh. and if you could say a prayer for my own battle re the same, i'd be in your debt.
i raise my sword in your honor, friend. be bold!
Blessings in Christ and Sophia,
Senko