Showing posts from February, 2009

February 26

As I did my moving meditation, I asked my HGA to take me to see the Sphere of the Moon. We flew over the 32nd path, and below we saw the ferryman, and the tree of life, as we circled the path. We came to the Land of Dreams, and I saw before me Gabriel, his trumpet in one hand, a spear in the other. He told me I was welcome, but to move further, I needed a ring of silver, his name engraved upon it. I said I couldn't afford it. He was adamant. I said I didn't know when I could get it made, when I could find an artisan to construct it. I began thinking of what I'd need to get a ring of silver made, how big it would be, how long it would take. I despaired. Then, I held up my hand. Upon it I burst a ring of gleaming silver, with גבריאל engraved upon it. גבריאל smiled and put rested his spear. "Welcome, Dream child" he said, and swept me all around the sphere of Yesod. I saw three paths, leading away. One path lead towards being a scholar. One path le

February 25

The sun came out. Many things were brought to light. And it was good. What? They can't all be deep. Psalm 36 The transgression of the wicked saith within my heart, that there is no fear of God before his eyes. For he flattereth himself in his own eyes, until his iniquity be found to be hateful. The words of his mouth are iniquity and deceit: he hath left off to be wise, and to do good. He deviseth mischief upon his bed; he setteth himself in a way that is not good; he abhorreth not evil. Thy mercy, O LORD, is in the heavens; and thy faithfulness reacheth unto the clouds. Thy righteousness is like the great mountains; thy judgments are a great deep: O LORD, thou preservest man and beast. How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings. They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of thy house; and thou shalt make them drink of the river of thy pleasures. For with thee is the foun

February 24

Yesterday definitely was the Futility. I was trying to get a lunar talisman done for the new moon (today). Stuff kept piling on, and I was resisting doing it. Arguments, fights, scheduling conflicts, distractions. Finally I realized it was futile. I wasn't going to wrap my head around it that day. And, it eased. I dealt with the issues before me, which were immediate but not necessarily urgent. I connected with folks I haven't talked to before, a new lady I'm interested in, my current lady who's very appreciative of the attention. I basically turned the energy outward. And it helped. Now, I'm revising my idea of when the Lunar Talisman has to be constructed. Perhaps I need to take a look at my talisman creation books, but I think I can construct it between new moon and 1st quarter, consecrate it between 1st quarter and full, and use it during the waning (probably the climax of consecration at full). HGA prayer and conversation is still ongoing.

Knowledge and Conversation

The more I practice magic, the weirder it gets. I'm definitely taking Israel Regardie up on his advice, and getting some therapy as I go along. I've done a bit, and the therapist regarded it as a nice way to explore my subconcious. I have ceased to take that view. While my HGA is definitely linked to me in some way, it's just as definitely not part of me. New avenues of exploration have opened up that have not been there previously. Articulations of vague fuzzy mystical concepts have become clear, and are not necessarily similar to previous concepts of similar types. Names have come to me. Sigils. Visualizations are much more clear. Currents are more apparent. Probable outcomes for courses of action are obvious. A lot has changed. I'm still doing the Abremelin working, but the guide and method have changed from the book. So I'm not sure if I'm still doing the Abremelin working except for this fact: After the journey, seen to it's completi