Fire Wand

I finished consecrating my fire wand! Afterwards, I walked the dog, then went upstairs and wrote 700 words and researched a bit and planned out the rest of the piece of writing I'm working on.

This has been really good for reminding me what my passions are, and where my priorities should lie. I'm fairly easily distracted, but with this accomplished, I think I've got a better handle on what I love to do, and what I need to be doing.

Also, I have the water cup in hand now, ready to be carved and painted. Can't wait.

Fire Wand & Golden Dawn

I have completed the construction of my fire wand, finally. I'll be consecrating it this weekend/next week, either on Sunday or Tuesday. Haven't decided which day is more auspicious, yet.

I'm about to start taking Golden Dawn degrees (about = sometime this year I get my 0=0). I've gotten on a GD forum, and they're perplexed that I've started with my weapons already. I'm simply working on them as the HGA directs. Edit: Had it explained to me by a member of the forum. These are supposed to be adept's (5=6) tools, so making them early is jumping the gun a bit. I'll simply have to make others/reconsecrate them when that time comes.

The Abremelin working is going well. I agree with Steven Guth that the working should take longer than not. The purification process is intensifying. I've moved from simple prayers morning and evening to an Invocation of the Archangels, Pater Noster, Heschayist practice, Pater Noster, Dismissal. I'm actually pretty good about doing it on the morning and evening schedule.

With the completion of the fire wand, I've seen some of my passions reignite, and become a bit more focused on my various goals. It's interesting to see it happen, and make note of it.

I have conjured bacon!

Of a sort. Qualified Bacon Success .

A Description of Tex

Brother R.O asks:

Very cool. Can you describe what the experience of TEX was like? For me, it was like the air got really dense and thick, like I was held tightly in the fist of God.

For me, Tex was an endless vista, with fountains of water. It's hard to describe, but it looks sort of like those artist's renditions of alien worlds, with fountains that go from a mountain of icy slush into the air and form great clouds above. I got the impression of great distances, and cool, misty, water. The landscape was shades of grey, and hard to resolve any senses with it. I am a Scorpio, water sign, so that makes sense. Scorpios are sometimes said to be the icy water signs, a fixed surface with turmoil underneath. I think this is what was coming through in the vision.

It was also an exercise in fear. I wasn't afraid, but the entity (TEX itself?) told me that I was filled with fear, and my fear kept me from moving forward. I would not be able to go further until I faced the fear, but I could get a look.

This make sense to me, given my current situations. I do feel a bit stuck. I was planning on moving out of the State, and those plans are on hold because of financial concerns. Abremelin has also stalled some, as experiences get more powerful, I start to wonder what I would do with that power.

But, The work continues.

TEX

So, Tuesday, May 5th, in the evening, I went to Holy Sophia Lodge, expecting to take in a lecture on Enochian Magic. And I did. The Magister of our lodge talked about The Hieroglyphic Monad, and how it is the basis and relates to all of Dee's future work. It was all intensely interesting and historical and related the Trinary to the Quaternary and the Septenerary.

Then he set up the altar, and began the skrying of TEX. And, he had no furniture.

Well, I should say, he had no furniture when he started. He built the furniture astrally, as part of the invocation, from memory. He built the Sigilium Dei Ameth, then the Skrying table, then the Tablet of Nalvage, then the Elemental tablets and the Tablet of union.

From memory.

It was quite effective. I think I'm a bit to materialistic, and would like to have actual tables for the operations. However, this worked just fine, and was similar to my first skrying of TEX, with Lon Milo Duquette, 2 years ago.

I'm not quite ready to begin Enochian work on my own, I don't think. I'm still balancing my elements and working through my wheels of planets. Luna is still open to me, but I've made no further attempts to progress, trying to get my elemental weapons finished. I've been enjoying the process, and hope to have my Fire Wand done soon. Once that's finished, we'll move onto Mercury. Perhaps revisit Luna in a more methodical way.

It's been a while...

Since the last time I posted, I have made a lunar talisman and my air dagger under the direction of the HGA.

They're both startlingly effective. I've been able to clean out a bit of the sphere of luna, and the air dagger is, well, simply awesome.

Today, I tried the LBRP, using the air dagger for the quarter of air. Where before I was using a breath of air, this was a tightly focused tornado. The energy was bright, startling, and simply greater yet under more control.

The force of it startled me. Now I know why they're called elemental weapons.

Dreams

I don't dream very often. It's a side effect of the sleep Apnea, I don't get to be asleep long enough to dream. Last night, I was at the sleep study, and when they put the mask on me, I was dreaming a ton. I don't remember most of them, except the last one.

I had the gun from Portal (I've never played Portal, just know the concept and have heard the song at the end about a gazillion times). I was trying to trap these orange rock monsters by feeding them to another monster using the portals. One end open in front of the rock monsters (kind of like the old D&D Bulettes, only rock), the other end open over the eating monster (like the saarlac from Star Wars).

The whole time, the song from the end of the game was playing "We must because we can" or whatever the lyrics are.

It was quite strange.